Macrobiotic Entry 2

Ok, my life is fucking boring, so time for macro entry #2!!

First of all, ass update. Oh good gravy, get these oil drills out of my buttocks!! This really really sucks. I've been going to bed every afternoon for the past five days. I'm so afraid that with my weight loss I'll get pressure sores. I've seen a photo of someone who had a silver dollar sized puncture on their butt just from sitting. The ischial (upper femur) busted through their flesh. So, I'm being careful I don't develop even a tiny red sore. I'm also waiting on a ROHO Quadtro wheelchair cushion I ordered last night. It's a pressure relieving inflatable cushion that a lot of people in chairs seem to think is godsend, so hey, I'll try it. I'm kinda desperate to end this pain.

My eating habits have been really good. I doubt I'll give in to any more cravings. Lately they've been for an Egg McMuffin. Disgusting. I'm sure they'll get worse before I switch over completely, but this is worth it even if I can live only a few years longer. For the sake of my dreams and my friends, I need to stay focused. I will miss Italian and Mexican food, but I'll look at that romantically. My time away from them will only make my heart fonder of them. It'll taste better then than now, because then I'll have good health and greater appreciation of taste. I can't fuck myself over now. It's too risky.

I haven't been eating as much as I should, though. This morning I ate four bites of rice and three pickle slices. I started feeling sick, so I stopped. I need to make sure to keep my weight up. Although, I have been eating more kale and buckwheat, which are both fattening. I'm hoping those will help me out. I just hope I stop gagging on the rice and tea soon. That's why I keep feeling sick. I just can't swallow that damn rice. It's too rough on my throat, so I just wash it down with tea. And of course the tea still tastes like bark mulch to me, so it makes me gag. It's really annoying. I really hope that changes soon.

Also, my dad says he'll call up the macro counselor we found in Brookline today. We're going to try to set something up for this month. Finally, we'll get to see exactly what's wrong with me. I can ask all the questions that have been bugging me. We can set up an exact meal plan. And hell, maybe he can take a look at my dad, too. I'm so very excited about the whole thing. I'm glad we found this person.

That's all. Look for more updates soon.